Getting Messy with Jesus

I’ve had several encounters with Jesus in 2026, and from the first moment of the first one, my entire life was changed and reoriented radically.

Living with a so-called highly gifted brain can be very challenging without adding God into the mix.

Jesus clarified and purified much of my human existence… and, other aspects got super messy and squiggly right away because of how this brain type functions.

I feel fortunate that I have already spent a decade crafting expertise on living with gifted cognition and sharing it with others born with gifted brains. Thanks to that, I have built up many key muscles within and have many tools and an effective framework to fall back on as I fall. And I do fall. Many times a day!

It’s been MESSY! 😳🤣🤷🏻‍♀️

I have also lived in deep devotion for many years to the Guidance of Spirit, which whispers within me and gives me often extremely specific instructions.

So I have those muscles as well: accurately discerning instructions, tuning my antenna for an ever more clean and clear signal, increasing my tolerance for ambiguity (which the brain DESPISES) as I wait for understanding and instruction.

It almost sounds like this should be easy for me then, right? This abiding in Jesus.

And yet, it is not! It is often very messy and challenging.

My previous sensations of God and Spirit as Prime Creator were what I would call diffuse. They had incredible specificity in terms of instruction and shared knowledge and always held a very particular feeling or tone (like a musical tone or sound), which was how I knew its “accuracy,” versus that which is created specifically in the human mind or is whispered in from the enemy to confuse and corrupt.

My first direct encounter with God which was the opposite of diffuse was like a sharp penetration by a giant spear of the True Light. It was personal and humbling beyond words and I will not try and describe it here.

This was not yet an encounter with Jesus. It was more the feeling of the entirety of the Trinity God with precise clarity that it WAS the Triune and no other.

I was directed then by Spirit to immerse in Revelation.

I had never been a reader of Scripture, having never previously considered myself a Christian. I was reasonably familiar with the Bible as a student of literature, culture, and world religions, but had never sat closely with most of it.

Revelation opened so much inside me but what I want, no, what I need to share is how Book 4 of Revelation affected me, particularly verses 6-8:

⁶ and before the throne there was as it were a sea of glass, like crystal. And around the throne, on each side of the throne, are four living creatures, full of eyes in front and behind: ⁷ the first living creature like a lion, the second living creature like an ox, the third living creature with the face of a man, and the fourth living creature like an eagle in flight. ⁸ And the four living creatures, each of them with six wings, are full of eyes all around and within, and day and night they never cease to say,

“Holy, holy, holy, is the Lord God Almighty,

who was and is and is to come!” -Revelation 4:6-8 ESV

As I heard and read these words for the first time, I felt myself there, witnessing these Seraphim (Isiah 6:2) whose entire existence is to surround the Throne of God and sing the praise “Holy, Holy, Holy…”

And I wept. I broke down fully and wept because I FELT IT. For a mere moment, I felt their experience, and it was the most beautiful thing I had ever felt.

Since that moment, I believe these Seraphim to be the luckiest creatures of all of existence. To be so close to God and be allowed to do nothing other than be in and proclaim that holiness?

What greater favor could any created being ever receive?

It’s literally impossible to describe any of this in a manner that makes sense to anyone without a direct felt encounter of some kind with God.

Yet for those who have had that, they immediately understand me when I try and fumble through this description and how my entire life is now devoted to that. They nod and smile and reach for my hands because they also know this for themselves.

After this encounter - I have been blessed with many more - I developed the ability to sometimes enter a similar state of worship, of proximity, on my own/by my own choice.

What I want more than anything now is to figure out how to live from this state.

How to make my tiny small human life into some poor echo of lived worship.

Of my own doings and creations and sharings with others to somehow be the best version available to me of expressing the Glory of God.

Immediately I understand how this gifted brain is the foundation for that. And its kryponite.

I’m sharing more about this here if you’d like to join me there. And I welcome and CHERISH your commentary here as well.

In JOY,

Melanie

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